HIDING MY TRUE SELF

As I was going back looking at older posts I realized how much my posting has changed.
I actually did become aware of this several months back when Mr. Bulletholes brought it to my attention.
However, now it seems remarkable that this should have changed so dramatically in only a few short months.

I feel as if I am hiding behind superficial, shallow posts that mostly include only photos that I've taken and poems or quotes stolen from someone else; Although, the photos have become more of who I am these days. Or, maybe they are representative of how I want others to think of me without giving anything of significance away.

The early days of this blog were chock full of my thoughts, feelings and angst. Now, well, none of that is revealed here. Maybe that is actually a positive step.Maybe those deep-seated negative thoughts no longer hold me hostage. Or..........

....maybe I am no longer doing any soul-searching? Am I no longer digging deep to reveal those pent up frustrations, wants or needs? Maybe.

I think this change has come about because of my fear of revealing anything not quite right about me to casual readers. Yet, when I read what others have written many seem not to have that worry.

Almost a year ago I felt that possibly I had found the perfect medium for my "therapy". Now, I'm not so sure.

We'll see how things progress from here.


Words to live by.

RED MAPLE

MAPLES

Leaves of fiery scarlet
reflect a crisp sun

rustle in a healthy mass
of autumn laughter

house an anarchy of crows
that screech at winters approach

until bare branches
balance snow

on slender
outstretched arms

Judith Pordon
C 1980

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Autumn Reflections

I can see the tall, majestic trees
swaying in the distance,
their leaves gracefully
falling,
the ground becoming a fusion
of red, orange, yellow, and green.

the allure of the autumn day beckons me
to reflection.....



....yes, the tree will live on,
but the leaves -
while graceful in their descent -
will ultimately be
forgotten…

Adam Friedman


I took these shots last week during my morning walk - Such a pretty time of year here. It makes even these dreary, drizzly days- such as today- tolerable.

Halloween and Bittersweet

Two things I love about the Autumn- HALLOWEEN and Bittersweet.

Nothing says fall to me like the hunt for Bittersweet- an invasive weed that strangles trees and crawls over shrubs. It's gorgeous. This time of year I can't drive down a road, edged with woods, without keeping an eye out for this beautiful vine. I keep a pair of clippers in my car so that I can easily hop out- once it is spyed- and cut as much down as possible before the cops stop me.
I then proceed to bedeck every available surface on my porch with this vine.I often do get rude comments about the need for a machete to get into my house. That's how much I twine around the doorway, bannisters, lightposts and bench. But look, isn't it cool?


Then there are the pumpkins- I have 5 on my doorstep now- all different varieties. They sure have come a long way since plain old orange ones from my childhood.
I have one that looks like a very large green-speckled apple, a white one, a very tall, elongated orange and - my favorite- the HUGE but squatty peach one that looks just like cinderella's carriage pre Fairy Godmother.
And then, of course, is the one that we carved for Halloween. This one was done by my son last night. He asked all of the poor souls who came Trick-or-Treating if they liked his jack-o-lantern. He's a glutton for compliments.

We also had one of those cool new fake ones that you get at Michael's Craft store. This one I carved last year. And it hasn't rotted away yet.

And the last is a ceramic one that I light everytime we have company coming- all the way up to Thanksgiving. I just thinks it's fun.

Only problem now is that I have two bags of Twizzler's and Crunch bars to get rid of. It's a dirty job but somebody has to do it.